Here we are, again. I have lived on this planet 39 years, well closer to 40 now, but who is counting? If anything I am very introspective, self aware, and super self critical. I have spent many years starting things and never finishing them. I have then proceeded to berate myself each and every time. As i approach my 40th year I am pretty much fed up with this course of action.
It has now been 4 years and change since I have found the CR and TTRPG community and the friends and support I never thought I would ever have in my life. Being in this community has taught me a lot about myself. So many of my friends suffer from impostor syndrome, from brains that tell them they are no good. When they are at their worst, or feel like they are at rock bottom, i try to be there for them. This then brings up the most obvious question. If i can be there for them, why cant I be there for myself? And that my friends is…whats the saying? Aye, there’s the rub.
So here we are. Another blog post, another day. I am going to be kind to myself. I am going to take the time to be creative, to try new things, to experiment and learn. I am going to try, I may fail, i may not be consistent, but I will keep on moving forward. Its the least i can do for myself. I have wasted too much time trying to compare myself with others, and in doing so, been petrified to try or start anything. No more. My 30’s have been about self realizations, about knowing who I am, what I want, and nurturing the relationships that support my health and growth. Now its on to the 40’s.
With a new decade I have new goals: Make the things I want to make. Learn the things I want to learn. Be bold, and fearless and adventurous. Lift up the voices that need lifting up. Find how my voice fits into the grand scheme, and most of all, just be more kind, more loving, and more accepting.
So what can you expect from me on this blog? Well let me tell you. Stay tuned here for infrequent writings about: PC backstories, random brain dumps, fighting depression, TTRPG creation, videos, painting and art, maps and whatever else i decide is important or that I want to share.
I am thankful for you, the person reading this now. Without you I wouldn’t be who I am. I love you, and I will support you. Thanks for reading.